The Two Cs

i dont believe in right or wrong. i dont believe in the concept of regret. i dont believe in god. i dont believe that there is a deeper meaning to life and that we are all here to fulfill some specific purpose. i dont believe that each of us has a role to play that automatically validates our existence. i dont believe that our existence needs to be validated.

i believe that everything boils down to circumstance and consequence. everything. from the fact that you are reading this blog right now, to the fact that your parents met and conceived you. they met due to circumstance. you are the consequence. at the same time, i believe you are who you choose to be. now both of these statements may appear to be intrinsically contradictive. but they arent. in fact they happen to coincide quite conveniently. you are who you choose to be. and your choices are based on circumstance. circumstance is society. it is your thought process. it is where you are right now. what you do is what you choose to. that is consequence. in retrospect, what you chose to do may seem wrong... but what is wrong? i know that right and wrong; ethics is a very debatable topic. and you may argue that everything is relative. what is wrong to you may seem right to me; one man's garbage is another man's gold and so on and so forth. but then there have to be some universal ethics, right? but what is universal? can the concept of universal truly exist? what is truth? is it absolute? no wait, i digress. ah yes, universal ethics. like murder. or rape. or stealing. death? is death wrong? or bad? or is it merely a consequence? or a circumstance. at the end of the day, it is all a matter of perception. and what is perception? it is choice. based on circumstance. when someone says "i think this is bad", they mean that they choose to perceive, to believe that "this" is bad. and their choice of belief is based on circumstance. and what is circumstance? their thought process; society and those universal ethics. but again, these ethics are based on society. and society is a circumstance. so you see, it is a vicious circle. or is it vicious? it is how you choose to perceive it. circumstance and consequence. consequence and circumstance.

so what i ask you to do is question. not question your ethics or whether or not you are influenced by society and to what extent. but i want you to question whether you believe all of this has a deeper meaning... or whether all of this is just a matter of circumstance and consequence. and your belief is a consequence based upon your thought process-your choice-your circumstance. so have i already answered that question for you? is there really a good and bad? a right and wrong? or is it actually about accepting? accepting circumstance and the proceeding consequence. or accepting consequence and the preceding circumstance. now "accepting" is a big word. but maybe its a word that needs to be thrown around more. but what is need? again, i digress. i believe, at least i'd like to (i choose to), that i accept who i am. i accept where i am and what i am. i accept the choices i make. because they are mine. and because they are choices. i accept you. i accept fact. i accept truth. i believe that truth is absolute. and i accept my belief. after all, my belief is my choice. and the choices i make are consequences as a result of circumstances. and i accept that.

so if i believe this, then why would i regret? what is regret? is it the concept of looking back at what you've done (your choices) and wishing you would have done something different? is it wanting to go back in time (which is impossible and i accept that) and changing what you chose to do? unnecessary. thats what it is. why not accept the choice you made and live in the now? be at peace with yourself. be at peace with the world. accept yourself. accept the world.

be able to say that if you were to die right now, you would be at peace with yourself and accept death for what it is. a mere consequence. because if you can do that, if you can be at peace with yourself, you can truly be in whatever state of mind you choose to. i choose to be in a positive state of mind at all times because i'd rather be happy than sad. if there is a point in time i need to feel sad, then i can. and i will. because that is my choice. my decision. but as soon as you recognise that you have the power to choose which mood you'd prefer to be in, imagine the possibilities. and what are these possibilities? consequences. or are they circumstances? either way, i feel that you should be able to say, at any point in time, that you are at peace with yourself.

and why should you be able to say this? why should you even listen to me?
i leave that up to you. your values, your thought process, your ethics.
your circumstance.

convinced? yes or no, its your decision, your choice.
your consequence.

accept it.